So I've really been learning something over the past week or so. Trusting God is like a constant work in progress (I think I believed it was more like riding a bike---once you seem to accomplish it in one area, it's just something you always know how to do---I'm starting to realize I was wrong). Or at least it is for me.
I think the more we trust the Lord, the easier it gets....but why is it so easy in some areas, but so hard in others?
For the past few years there have been certain areas of my life that I have just had to completely surrender to the Lord. It took a long time, but I finally just gave it up and turned it all over to Him. God has blessed me in these areas more than I EVER imagined.
I've experienced so much joy over these past few years. And especially these past few months. For a while it was that joy that you only experience in the desert- I think that's the kind of joy you really have to choose every day to have.
For the past few months, I have experienced a different kind of joy. It's that joy that you just can't deny. The kind that just seems to just radiate from within.
This week I completely let Satan steal all of that joy from me. The sad thing is that he really didn't have to work that hard for it. I kind of just handed it over, almost without even realizing it. And then I did a great job of making up excuses of why I was feeling the way I did. None of which were the truth.
Too bad just when I think I have it all figured out, I quickly realize I do NOT.
I let the enemy plant a thought of insecurity and then I just let him run with it. It's crazy the places our minds can go.
Then that insecurity turned into worry and that worry turned into fear, and I completely let fear control all of my thoughts and actions. Fear makes you do and think crazy things sometimes.
It was miserable.
Thankfully last night, through lots of prayer, the Lord really began to open my eyes and I was able to take all of those crazy thoughts captive. But of course Satan just kept attacking all day today. I'm learning that trusting the Lord is really something you have to choose to do.
I don't know how to end this, I feel like there may be more I want to say, but for now I'm just going to stop and say that there really is so much freedom in trusting the Lord.
I think the more we trust the Lord, the easier it gets....but why is it so easy in some areas, but so hard in others?
For the past few years there have been certain areas of my life that I have just had to completely surrender to the Lord. It took a long time, but I finally just gave it up and turned it all over to Him. God has blessed me in these areas more than I EVER imagined.
I've experienced so much joy over these past few years. And especially these past few months. For a while it was that joy that you only experience in the desert- I think that's the kind of joy you really have to choose every day to have.
For the past few months, I have experienced a different kind of joy. It's that joy that you just can't deny. The kind that just seems to just radiate from within.
This week I completely let Satan steal all of that joy from me. The sad thing is that he really didn't have to work that hard for it. I kind of just handed it over, almost without even realizing it. And then I did a great job of making up excuses of why I was feeling the way I did. None of which were the truth.
Too bad just when I think I have it all figured out, I quickly realize I do NOT.
I let the enemy plant a thought of insecurity and then I just let him run with it. It's crazy the places our minds can go.
Then that insecurity turned into worry and that worry turned into fear, and I completely let fear control all of my thoughts and actions. Fear makes you do and think crazy things sometimes.
It was miserable.
Thankfully last night, through lots of prayer, the Lord really began to open my eyes and I was able to take all of those crazy thoughts captive. But of course Satan just kept attacking all day today. I'm learning that trusting the Lord is really something you have to choose to do.
I don't know how to end this, I feel like there may be more I want to say, but for now I'm just going to stop and say that there really is so much freedom in trusting the Lord.
